Ohhh good Heavens, it's pouring. I like, I like. It has been ages since it last rained like tonight. As crazy as this may sound, I miss rain like I miss having someone to love. It's a good thing one of these actually "sprang" into my life. Now, you'd know which one I'm talking about if you're smart enough. hur hur.

Anyway, on to something unrelated. I've given this a lot of thought, so much so that I just hope you can take a hint and move on because it's about sodding time both of us do. I mean, just look at us. You seem eager to make things work and well, so am I. But I cannot withstand the fact that you keep asking me if I really want this. Initially, I thought that well, maybe he just needs some reassuring. And then you kept asking as if my actions and words don't mean a thing. Your asking me the same question time and again puts me off. If you're *that* insecure, then forget it. Seriously. I don't want to waste my time harbouring thoughts and feelings that I shouldn't anyway. So let's just walk on. You go your way and I'll go mine.

I think I'd opt for rain anyday. Having love at this juncture in life is too burdensome. Even though not having love for quite a bit has left me all bitter and cynical, I think I'm quite happy basking in contentment. Afterall, it is raining. And that reminds me of Banana Pancakes.

I don't know when I will ever be ready to get back in the game. I'm pretty certain though, it's going to take a huge leap of... umm faith. I don't think I've mustered enough courage as yet to make that leap. All in time.