This may occur to you as something remotely mature. I just feel that I have to justify myself for the way I acted that day at home. Here's
her blog, go ahead, read her side of the story.
Firstly, she does nothing but glues herself to the laptop which she proudly claims to be hers, all day long. She spends the whole day in front of that wretched thing instead of doing whatever a 13-year-old school girl should be doing. And then she leaves in on running for hours and doesn't turn in off until it gets heated up. If anyone had placed an egg on it, the egg would have probably been half-cooked. In any case, I tell her once to turn in off, she dismisses it with a rather annoying facial expression and goes back to sleep. The 2nd time, I lose my patience and scream at her, again telling her to switch that damn thing off. She doesn't budge. The third time, she yells at me and spew some gibberish talk out of which, all I could comprehend was "bukan laptop kau."
I lose my patience and initially hit her with a small pillow. My temper rages and I resort to using my hands instead. After much persuasion from my mother, she finally gets her scrawny ass into the study to turn that thing off.
She does her homework with the computer on. She spends most of her free time on the computer. And above all, she's a brat who doesn't respect her parents and her sisters. She doesn't call Nana kakak (big sister in malay) and she raises her voice unnecessarily at her parents and anyone of her sisters. Her favourite phrase - "kau sibuk apasal?" She's a tyrant at home but when she's in school, she completely loses territory.
She tells her friends what a big bully I am at home and thinks that it's rather uncharacteristic of me because of who I used to be back in school. Look who's the bully now. She pretty much likes the attention from all her oh-so-adorable friends and she definitely loves others to see herself as the victim. orrrghhhh. Poor you, always the victim. I will always be the evil, big bully a.k.a the elder sister.
She thinks all the burden of the world has been placed unto her shoulders.
ohhh, what a cruel world. I'm only 13, well, barely. She thinks I'm unaware that small girls have feelings too. I used to be a small girl too. But I never hogged on something which doesn't belong to me and leave it running so that it can eventually blow up and cause everyone in the house to die.
She thinks just because she has a truckload of friends, she's all high and mighty.
I knew what she will turn out to be when she told me to shut up, in front of a family friend's family, in a foreign land, sometime last year.
One too many times, I feel like giving her a tight slap on her face so that her teeth will all fall out. Especially when she does that ever-so-annoying face thing. And sometimes, I just feel like punching her. If I dare do that, I'd probably get a kick in the face from my dad, myself.
She really thinks she's extremely vulnerable and miserable, abused by this evil big sister. But really, at the end of the day, after having my youngest sister yell at me, I can just cry into my pillow and choke on my tears. Just choke on 'em and hope to die.
Go ahead Nadhirah Bte Abdul Rashid, tell your friends, let the whole world know what a miserable life you're leading and what a big, fat and evil big sister you have. HAVE ALL OF THEM KNOW!
He is really testing me.
In any case, liverpool won. By one lucky goal. A controversial one, no less.
Sunday, April 16, 2006
Any 19/20-year-old would have probably went out and met up with friends to do a fair bit of catching up. A public holiday is certainly useful for that. That's what a normal 19/20-year-old or anyone for that matter, would do on a public holiday. I, on the other hand, the not-so-normal one, stayed home the whole day in front of the telly. Quite the couch potato, I've become. I watched 4 movies, one after another. A toilet break or even a break for a meal would have caused me to lose my momentum and hence, all interest to watch anything at all. Unfortunately, when I was at my fourth, I succumbed to sleepiness and dreariness. The weather was too good to resist. I slept through till the next morning and then woke up to get ready for work. I thought it was a Sunday and for a moment, I refused to budge from the bed.
But I got up anyway and went to work.
One customer made my day. Sara Chantelle who lives in Bt Batok, if you're ever gonna come across this one day, I, the staff who picked out those movie titles for you, would like to say many thanks for the chocolates!
She gave me chocolates.
Chocolates. dumdeedeedum. I like lah.
In other news, instead of heading down to the east for coffee (not that I drink coffee, though), I made my way to town to meet up with the guys. I had a quick breakfast/lunch/dinner at the lucky plaza's food court. And seriously, when I saw the portion served, I felt the urge to ask for a refund. They gave me fries in a portion which I think wouldn't even be enough to feed a small child. Tsk. Should have just settled for the umm fishball noodles. But alas, it's all probably somewhere down the sewage pipes. hur hur. okay, tak kelakar lah ain.
I'm done with the bachelor and monsoon wedding. I still have The Cell, Lolita, The Longest Yard and Hush. Yea yea, they're all really old titles and it's about bleeding time. So I'm a little outdated. Don't be a prick, sod off okay.
It's Sunday already and in a matter of hours, it's going to be Monday. It's back to work. Give and take, 2 weeks more to go. It's beckoning, liberation beckons!
Kwinella @ 2:08 AM!
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
Tadi, di tempat kerja saya, 2 orang wanita (kaum mereka tidak akan dimaklum) menghampiri lalu bertanya bagaimana caranya untuk menyewa dvd. Saya memberitahu mereka bahawa syarat-syarat yang harus dipenuhi sudah pun sedia tercatat and mereka dipersilakan baca. Tuhan dah beri mata dan akal fikiran, gunakanlahhh. Takkan nak harapkan orang sampai ke mati? Saya rasa lah kan, mereka tu buta huruf tapi eksyen potek. Sungguh, ramai rakyat Singapura buta huruf walaupun ramai yang melalui pendidikan wajib(?). Walaupun saya sibuk macam nak rak, saya tetap melayan mereka dengan penuh sukacita.
Tapikan, yang membuat darah saya menyirap, bila saya selesai memberi keterangan dan penjelasan, itu dua tongong seolah-olah tak paham apa yang saya bebelkan dan langsung membaca apa yang tertera di notis itu. Berbuih mulut saya. Tak tahu baca tu sudahlah. ye-ye-orh je.
Lepas tu kan, dah lah tak tahu baca, banyak colok dan cangkem pula tu. Itu jam juga, saya rasa macam nak jotos-jotos kepala itu dua orang. Dan bila bab nak isi dan tandatangani borang penyertaan... company kita memang tak beri borang yang ditandatangan oleh pelanggan sebab borang-borang tu harus dihantar ke pejabat untuk diproses. Tapikan, pelanggan yang amat eksyen tapi selenge bacin nak mampos ni, ngada-ngada lah seh. Semasa saya menerangkan syarat-syarat untuk menyewa, saya turut menjelaskan pembayaran untuk dvd yang lambat dikembalikan dan berapa keping yang boleh disewa. Sebenarnya, apa yang saya jelaskan sampai air ludah saya tempias kena muka mereka yang basi bagai tak mandi 10 hari, ada tertulis di borang.
Lepas tu kan, dia mintak saya photocopy-kan dia sebab dia nak simpan... takut dia asal boleh sign. Tak mengapa lah eh. Tapikannn, nampak sah dia pekak. Dah penat orang jelaskan, masih nak simpan. Nak buat "selet" agaknya. E. Geli saya. hur hur. racist eh? Dah la buta, pekak, menyusahkan orang pula tu. Kedai dah lah penuh sesak dengan orang yang dah hilang kesabaran. Dia boleh lagi suruh orang photocopy.
Pada ketika itu, rasa-rasanya macam nak tembak kepala dia dengan senapang gajah.
Namun begitu, ada juga detik-detik yang mencuit hati.
Umpamanya, semalam, ada satu pelanggan ni. Dia datang nak kembalikan dvd dan kemudiannya sewa beberapa keping lagi. Dvd yang hendak dikembalikan diletakkan di dalam sampul surat berwarna kelabu. Setelah selesai membuat transaction, saya pun tanya "awak nak carrier?" (dlm bahasa inggeris) "oh tak payah. saya ada sampul surat. ehh awak ada ambil sampul surat saya?" Saya pun terpinga-pinga lalu cuba mencari tapi apakan daya, ianya tidak timbul. Lepas tu, dia pun meninggalkan kedai. Bila dia berpaling arah, saya terlihat sesuatu yang dikepitnya. jeng jeng jeng.
The envelope was with her the whole time.
waduhhh.gwe bisa jadi mereng dechhh layan orang-orang kayak gituk.
Kwinella @ 11:45 PM!
Sunday, April 09, 2006
That song came on last night at the national stadium and out of the blue, I miss work. And then this afternoon, they played twist and shout. Wooohooooo, I burst into inexplicable joy and excitement. I almost wanted to boogey and do the twist there and then. But of course, practice of self-control can never make you go wrong. heh. I had a fabulous time over the weekend. so... yeap. And can you believe this, Fiji won the sevens!!! I'm so proud of them micronesian/polynesian islands. It was good to see underdogs emerging.
In any case, I'm looking forward to next year.
Yeap. As of now, I've nothing (nice) much to say. Except that I'm dragged back to the much dreaded reality.
And liverpool won. ahhhh. Such bliss.
Kwinella @ 11:16 PM!
Thursday, April 06, 2006
That's the title of the cookbook I got off borders after work, this evening. It's quite a bargain. $9.95. And it caused me to have a mini-orgasm ( or something like that. heh). For now, I'm a happy girl. After April 30th, I'll have all the time in the world to cook and cook and cook and probably finally get my driver's license. I also can't wait to get sputnik sweetheart. omg omg. I have a feeling there's more withdrawal than injection and that is completely unbecoming. But nevermind.
And so, the hunt for the perfect running shoes has come to an end. I finally got a pair and I cannot afford to churn up anymore excuses for being so flabby and weak. It's time to get back in shape, y'all.
haha.
met my other half (inside joke), ina and firdaus on the way back and ended up going back with firdaus. I thought of scaring him with a video clip my dad secretly sent to my phone but after much thought, I decided not to lest I'd be the one scared out of my wits.
I've had too much junk food this week. Must stay away from bk and macs.
Kwinella @ 12:59 AM!
Sunday, April 02, 2006
If they were going to pick students for an interview which is to be aired on national television, at least pick those who can speak malay fluently and not stutter like some kid with speech deficiency. I may not be a guru bahasa or someone who actually masters the language, but at least I know that it's a grave language mistake; to make up your own kata gandaan (especially when you're on a television show, in which the medium of communication is Bahasa Melayu!) I am also sometimes peeved when these people on television, clearly without much wit, make an attempt to create a malay word out of an english word when they just can't get an inkling of what the english word would be in malay. The hilarity that engulfs me whenever I watch such comical situation is beyond belief.
In other news, I managed to watch all the dvds that I brought home. Brokedown Palace was just mind-blowing and I cried at the part Keanu Reeves was giving a eulogy at G.Baby's funeral, in Hardball. It was just very moving. Moreover, to see such a small and adorable boy die of a gunshot is terribly depressing. But halfway through brokedown palace, I realised that I've actually watched the movie before and I remember it leaving a deep impression on me. Because it was all about being friends forever, I loved it a lot.
Despite how happening my weekend has turned out to be, I still found it to be rather dull. There was no live telecast of the liverpool game. bleh.
Kwinella @ 11:03 PM!
So, today was the day I finally had the chance to go to the beach and meet up with my schoolmates. Before I go on to say how happy I was to see all of them, let me just emphasise on my frustration when I found out that there is not even a ledger balance in my account this afternoon. I was completely fuming mad. I am ultra broke and adult fare is such a bitch. Thank God for driver's license! I can't wait lah. My pay is still not in!!! huaaaaarghhhhhhh.
In any case, I had a swinging good time with my mates. It wasn't anything we did that was particularly mind-blowing. I just love the simple fact that we had each other's company and how silly small talks could be so engaging. It was just... love. Having 2 supersweet chocolate cakes made the event even more memorable. Not very cheap, the 2 cakes. One came from a hotel and the other, a renowned cake shop. But that's not the point. I really, really ought to give a special mention to these people who made the trip from tanjong pagar to ecp worthwhile (and the cab fare, notwithstanding my financial crisis)
zulaiha, hisham, boris (the three birthday babies), nasrul (i miss you loads, love!!!), firdaus, ira, amirul, fariha, abul, shirin, mai, aliff, david, harshad, razali, aim and hisham's fmaily for the awesome food. It was rad.
Boy, I really hope the pay comes in soon. I need to get a pair of running shoes, pronto! oh wells. Please hor, bank in the cheque. Bank in the cheque, dammit. So, tomorrow will be yet another day of dvd marathon. Big Fat Liar, Brokedown Palace and Hardball. Hardball is really just because of keanu reeves. The other two, well, just so I could kill time. heh.
To think that after all the food and green tea i've consumed within a time span of 6 hours, my stomach's growling, asking for more. The horror.
Okay, I'm out. Have to go on an sms-stint. Apparently, I have a friend whose butt is not cushioned enough and needs to be on a mattress badly and hence, is unable to continue chatting on msn with me. Iqbal, for the love of life, save your next pay and get a wireless keyboard or better still, a comfortable chair!
New York Pizza on tuesday with the gang at gramophone. weeeee. I loooooove.
Kwinella @ 12:45 AM!
