I honestly have no idea what's my purpose in life anymore. For now, I can just pray to the Almighty that He sheds some light on my path. With a mind so cluttered and entangled, I don't know what to make out of what had happened thus far. Call me a crybaby but I just feel that it has happened far too often. There's just no one to stay long enough to listen to what I've been wanting to pour out. Disheartening, indeed it is, upon realisation that despite all the times you've been through with some of your precious gems, you just find yourself... marooned.

As if that emotional roller coaster isn't enough, another form of emotional disorder has managed to subjugate most of me. If I were to be kept under the watchful eyes of professionals, I'd probably be labelled as a manic-depressive. Life has been tremendously turbulent. I've seen myself on an extremely high high and unbelievably low low.

Today was fabulous albeit weird

I met Amanda at her place and off we went to east coast part to cycle to our hearts' content. From east coast, we pedalled all the way to tanah merah. My phone network was somehow within telekomsel's. So, I had to actually make an overseas call from Tanah Merah to my dad who is not too far away, in bukit panjang. heh. There was not a single moment that I could have taken to frown and brood over something at the back of my head. Boleh dikatakan, aku macam orang gila, tersengih. The company I had was just rad. The moment I got on board 700, my emotional and mental being simply transformed into something else altogether. I just found that transition of state of mind and emotion to be confounding.

Eurgh. Nevermind the disorderliness of my life. I'll just watch some more tv and read the classifieds... and probably stare at Jude Law.