Monday, October 03, 2005
I feel oh-so-blue. Like, what do you expect. It is a Monday and Mondays are supposed to be blue regardless of the colour that you have on your hair, clothes, undergarment etc etc. I have to admit that today wasn't exactly a perfect beginning to the week. We finally went through our management paper and I sank deeper into depression. It was horrible. But I am now more determined than ever to pull my way through. However, that does not change the fact that I am disgruntled over the compulsory consultations I have to attend everyday after school until 5.15. I can kiss goodbye to my condensed time table. If that is what it takes to get a B for management, then so be it. But 5.15pm when everybody else gets to head for home at 1.30 is a little too much, don't you think?
My body's sore from pe this morning. I feel hungry and sleepy. I found it amazing that I had the strength to prepare essays to be assessed by econs teacher. May God bless her by the way. She's too nice a teacher and I'd feel damn guilty if I don't attain at least a C. Which is why I shall get back to econs right after I'm done with this entry. Well anyways, I have got to get my fat arse down to bras basah to get a hold onto econs tys. I am a complete buffoon when I travel alone (as of late), which is weird because I am usually very self-efficient and independent. That is why, I need someone to go with me to bras basah asap. I am hoping tomorrow so that I won't tire myself out on wednesday. Ohhh and I just realised that I have consultation only on Mondays, Tuesdays and Thursdays and it's not everyday that I end at 5.15. Only Mondays and Thursdays. Heh. But it still sucks lah. So tomorrow anyone? 3.45pm??? heh. Perhaps I should not make an open invitation lest somebody turns up... uninvited. Yeayea I have a limited vocabulary. Fuck off.
*A sudden trigger off of manic-depressive mode*
I am hoping that people (perhaps only certain people. that would do) could see that there is still one constant left in this world of calamities and prejudice, and that is my sincerity because really, no one recognises that fact anymore. Bleh. Please do not bother to get all riled up in case you feel the pinch because I am not lashing out at anyone in particular. I just felt the need to whine. Pardon me while the lack of sense of self-worth settles in.
Okay, Amanda has agreed to accompany me to get the book. yay. Finally, that woman is going out with me. The excitement does not mean that my lack of sense of self-worth has subsided. I shall get on with econs now. So, till the next pending entry.
Ya Allah, berkatilah usahaku selama 3 tahun yang amat memenatkan dan mencabar, agar dapat aku kecapi kejayaan dan kawanku Jar Jar dapat membeli nota-nota aku yang bertimbun-timbun dan buku teks yang tebal seperti kulit babi. (okay, I don't really know how think a pig's skin is). Ameen.
Kwinella @ 5:21 PM!
